Karl In A Battle

Who talk of victory? To endure is all.

Everything became so genial when I came back to Hangzhou, maybe I missed home too much.

When I recalled that I found a new, i.e., the second job, I was beginning to realize that moment probably was my milestone of my life. As a computer engineer, I jumped from DOS directly to Internet skipping experiencing the windows development. I started to learn new computer languages, ASP, PHP, ISAPI to develop the internet applications. My first project of the second job was to develop a MIS (Management Information System) for a drugstore, including repertory management, sales management, report management. This project was based on Internet brower and ActiveX plugin coded by Delphi. Maybe this was the most terrible project I did, tons of bugs and was extremely unstable even occur to IE crash.  What a mess! I promised I would never use Delphi to code any more!

However, In this failing project, one thing was successful, I fell into the love with a girl who was a clerk of that drugstore. She was pretty, innocent with white skin and good figure. I noticed her when I saw her at the first time. I didn’t know what the feeling was, people called love. This was my first love, which made me so nervous that I didn’t know where I should start and how to express myself frankly. They said the first love was the most beautiful and romantic in the whole life. I agreed with it.

I remembered clearly our first date. That night we went to a movie, she walking slowly ahead of me with little shyness and uncomfortable behavior, I followed her with the same status. We didn’t talk each other, I just felt tremendously awkward at that time. Suddenly, I grabbed her hand unexpectedly from behind, she didn’t look at me, I can feel she was so trembling at the moment but later I never let her hand escape from mine. Hahaha, I was so foxy. From that night, we were just like peas and carrots, always together. We were lovers! We encouraged each other, cared each other and loved each other. Though we didn’t probably know what the love is indeed, we had a very very very happy time together in our youth.

Being with her, I experienced the first kiss, the first canoodle and the first sex, so did she. I don’t want to narrate more about these scenarios, but when these first things came, I had totally no idea about what I am doing, maybe the sexual actuation stopped my brain running. By the way, I was not the animal to philander some girls and made them unvirgin, I still think  so far that it is no necessary to keep virgin until marriage, because the peak of man’s sexuality is at 18, and will be decreasing  year by year after 30, so between 18 and 30, a man should grasp the appropriate chance to take some legal and secure sexual activity. For what? for the better health. I read it from a medical magzine. I had’t researched the same things on woman, mostly alike I think.

Whereas, one year later, in 2000, neither my girlfriend’s mother did think I had the enough economic power to plan on her daughter’s future,  nor my father did think she had a good education and cultural backgroud to make me worth staying with her, we broke up reluctantly because we didn’t want to be against each family. That was my first love ended quickly and tragically.

(To be continued…)